One year ago this morning, I woke in a hotel room in
Circleville. My in-laws just next door
(with half my kids). We had said our
final goodbye's to Ryan Nathan...yet there was so much more to be said! The grieving process is one I do not claim to
understand. I am learning that while a
process, it is different for everyone and yet so similar. The emotions of the past 12 months are long
and difficult. To loose someone so
young, so early. There was so much more
to say. We know he had more to say. As we communicated for the last time in a
hospital room just hours before he was put on hospice care and sent home - he
wanted to talk. He wanted to communicate
and yet everything was cut short.
Ryan was not only an amazing man. He was a loving uncle. Always a smile for his niece and
nephews! He was a devoted daddy, He
loved and was so proud of his four girls.
He was a passionate husband - he loved Holly unconditionally. He was a son, one of only 2, the youngest,
the baby of the family. He was a brother
- full of competition and admiration for his big brother!
He was a nephew, a grandson, a cousin, a singer, a friend,
hard worker, a learner, a talented man, a craftsman, there are so many words
that could describe Ryan. Most
importantly Ryan was a lover and follower of Jesus Christ! He believed very strongly and he would tell
anyone about his relationship with Jesus.
He desired for everyone to know Jesus and have a personal relationship
with Jesus! He had dreams to build the
kingdom!
Now as we are a full year from saying our last good-byes -
the grieving continues. The pain..the
loss a life that was taken way too early. A life that had so much more to live and
give. It's hard to swallow, yet I know
if Ryan were here today he would say - Love Jesus, Live each day for
Jesus! He lived it - He desired it for
his children, his family, his friends, everyone he met!
We are not guaranteed our next breath in this life. Are you living each moment, each breath for
Jesus or are you just living and hoping to get that all sorted out in the
end?
We continue to grieve.
We continue to go through the gamete of emotions! And we continue to trust in the only One who
knows our pain and sorrow - JESUS!